One Year

And just like that, it’s been a year. A wonderful and eventful year!

How time flies so fast, it feels like it was only yesterday when I carried you in my arms for the first time. A delicate tiny baby that fits perfectly in my arms and in that very moment you took my breath away. It seems only last night when I heard your first cry that sounds like “lahhh – lahhh-lahh”, such powerful cry that made your daddy dance and always on his toes. And as a first time mom, I don’t know what exactly to do to comfort you.  And as I was still weak from the CS, I couldn’t carry you and sway you to sleep for long. No one told me I should have nurse you for as long as you want or cuddle you to keep you warmth  but instead the doctor told me to nurse you every two hours, we didn’t know that you want my warmth that’s why you were crying.

We’ve been through a lot – those first few nights when I was struggling between nursing you, changing your soiled cloth nappies and catching up the badly needed sleep – too exhausting, but every time you are sleeping peacefully on my chest and I can stare at you, all those exhaustion fades away. You are still the best gift I have received.  

You have grown into a beautiful baby, sweet girl and adorable toddler. I just couldn’t get enough of you. 

No words can exactly explain my feelings. It’s all clouded in my head. 

My daughter, thank you for teaching me how to love unconditionally and for showing that I can love more than I can love myself.  I wish you to grow according to God’s plan, I want you to have your own personality and individuality. I will always here for you, to guide you and to protect you. I love you to the moon and back and for eternity.